On three way.
"Under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows it's true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do it's work so you become mature and well developed, not deficient in any way." James 1:2-4
With so much going on or as I read, "not going on," maybe I am wrong. Another week goes by and see no real change. I am in a tight spot. I feel under everyone's thumb. There isn't a real decision I can make for myself in order to get ahead. So then I have to wait. Then all I can hear in my head is Mama telling me to take a leap of faith. She's super right to a point.
I understand how Ladybird feels when she has to stay in the dog pen. Out in the open, but ready to run. Unfortunately, she is under control. Even though she does know to stay away from danger. Protected to the point of punishment. Maybe my POV is misconstrued, but honest.
Enough of that.
I looked at you with clear blue eyes and asked. The future seemed so open and bright. We sat like a bird in the cage. Only to sing for a half hour of the day. The Master brought us out, and we loved that feeling. When He came in the room and we saw his face. When we were shiny and hopeful, never doubting the promise! Brought through safely, but ruing the time in the cage.
(Learn your lesson)
I watch a man walk through the parking lot as he goes to the cemetery across the street. I don't know who he goes to visit and half the time I don't see him come back. There's a story for sure. He may spend all day there. Again, I'm not so sure. If I do see him walking, I watch him until he goes in. I like people watching. I wonder what they are thinking. Where they are going, that sort of thing. Are they a churning storm? Are they pleasantly surprised with what life they are living? Sometimes I make up elaborate stories about a person's life. Walk outside my own. Take a break.